silence

You know its pretty hard nowadays for me to move on i guess.
Its only cos i guess my heart still beats for someone. Ive come upon a song quite recently and it took me a while to translate it. Its a chinese song, but the words, cut deep into my heart, sometimes pulling tears from my eyes.

The song is "Silence" or "An jing", sung by Jay Chou, though it isnt the original.

Zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo tan le yi tian
Shui jiao de da ti qin
An Jing de jiu jiu de
Wo xiang ni yi biao xian de fei chang ming bai
Wo dong wo ye zhi dao
Ni mei you she bu de
Ni shuo ni ye hui nan guo wo bu xiang xin
Qian zhe ni pei zhe wo ye zhi shi cheng jin
Xi wang ta shi zhen de bi wo hai yao ai ni
wo cai hui bi zi ji li kai

Chorus
Ni yao wo shuo duo nan kan
Wo gen ben bu xiang fen kai
Wei she me hai yao wo yong wei xiao lai dai guo
Wo mei you zhe zhong tian fen
bao rong ni ye jie shou ta
Bu yong dan xin de tai duo
Wo hui yi zhi hao hao guo
Ni yi jin yuan yuan li kai
Wo ye hui man man zou kai
Wei she me wo lian fen kai dou qian jiu zhe ni
Wo zhen de mei you tian fen
An jing de mei zhe me kuai
Wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
Shi ying wei wo tai ai ni

Translation (this took me about an hour considering my crappy chinese)
Only the piano accompanies me throughout the day
The sleeping cello
Quiet and so old
I think you've made yourself clear
I know and I'm sure
You don't regret
You say you're upset too, that I don't believe
You being with me was in the past
I hope he loves you more than I do
Only then will I bring myself to leave

Chorus
You want me to say it, but it is awkward
I don't even want to break up
Why must I depend on a smile to tide me through?
I don't have the ability
To accept both you and him
Don't worry too much
I'll still be fine
You've already gone far away
And I will slowly walk away
Why is it that I have to accommodate you even when [we] break up?
I really don't have the ability
Staying silent doesn't come so fast
I will learn to give you up
Because I love you so much


I sing all these, but the part of giving up, is just so hard.
loves.