It hurts

It seems so far away, yet my hurt is so intense.
The words, the pictures, hammer and pound their way into my heart.
I cant cry for the tears that used to flow have grown tired for this cause.

Ive seen things that should not have been seen. Ive heard words that should not be said. Ive said things, so silly that i go home, lying awake for the things that haunt me. Why do these feelings keep attaching themselves to me.

Im still so into someone.
Im so pathetically clingy.
But she isnt easy to let go i guess.
I cant cry, but my nose creates the sensation of burning.
My eyes tense up but nothing comes.
My lips permeate smoke into the skies.

What am I to do but wait.